lord Vishnu

My life did not turn out the way I planned it. I planned the best life for myself but I am the one who has gone through heartaches, physical problems, and emotional problems the most. I took care of my health to a great extent that no one can even imagine but my mental pain transformed into physical pain. Though I am mentally free of the past my body is still healing. I am 42 years old now. When I look back at my life I see myself as a carefree girl who never thought too much but I was never a bad decision maker. Though time proved many things wrong I know that it was for a reason.

Nowadays I think about everything which a normal human being would never think about. My dad thinks just because I have too much time to spend with myself I keep hallucinating. How do I tell them that the images in my head have started transforming into reality? My parents cannot read much of my energy and I think they are too engrossed in thinking that the person who is staying with them is still a kid. I sometimes feel like telling my parents I am a little grown-up now.

There is so much happening in the entire world that you cannot just sleep over it. The universe is undergoing massive change and so are the planets in the solar system. I am facing problems of the disturbed sleep cycle and that is really affecting me. There is so much happening in my mind and outer environment near me that my brain thinks it's all hallucinatory. The thin line which existed between me and the outer world feels like getting removed. The messages are so fast and huge that I am losing my mind.