I am a deeply spiritual girl. It is not something I chose, but it was handed to me on a platter by my dad. When my dad used to do any puja, he would call my sisters and me to join him. I used to stand there in front of God with folded hands. As I grew up, my longing to get closer to the very source of creation became stronger. I asked my daddy many questions. Sometimes he would answer them, and at other times he would get clueless about what to tell me. I understood deep down that I have to connect with the very energy that I am worshipping to get my answers. Till age 35, I was just a normal girl praying and offering my love to the invisible energy. I had no idea about anything. I was just lighting diya and agarbattis and doing some small puja, which the pandits guided me to do. After watching YouTube videos and reading many books, I came to know that you can connect with that invisible, powerful energy just through your heart. He just needed your undivided attention and nothing else. It is your wish to offer him flowers and prasad. Age 36 was the turning point in my life. My holy trip to Tirupati in December 2015 changed my entire life. My God, Sri Anantha Padmanabhaswamy entered my life. It was his choice to be part of my divine world. I simply believe that your God chooses you, and it's not the other way round. They just plant that seed inside your heart and mind. That seed grows into a tree, flowers, and then bears sweet fruit. When that fruit ripens, you just get drawn to a certain deity. That’s it, their job is done, and now you get attracted towards them.
I always say that my God is the man who changed my life for a lifetime. When my life fell apart in the year 2017, I felt miserable. In those times of distress, I have felt an invisible presence very strongly. That divine energy just held my hands and walked with me in every step I took. He guided me on what to do. In moments when I felt lost, he just calmed me. It always feels free to talk to him because people around me never completely understood what I was going through. I have fought with depression and come out of it without taking any medicines with the help of the divine. He guided me to practice Mantra Meditation and regain peace in my life. Every rough situation was made smooth by him. I have always had that divine light around me, even when I was not thinking about him or focusing on him. I just know he is there. I have reconstructed my whole self from scratch, using all the broken pieces that were lying on the floor after my home was destroyed. That man left without any warning. He left with unpaid bills, unpaid home loans, and unpaid corporation tax. I single-handedly ran from one office to another and got all the work done with divine help. Everywhere I went, I received guidance. I had never handled these works, and yet I was the one doing everything on my own. My parents offered me moral and financial support. They never came to help me physically. Both my parents are aged. I didn't expect much from them.
I have good neighbours. Uncle would always guide me on what to do. I felt it was my God speaking through him and various other people who helped me fully without knowing me. I remembered one day I had gone to the corporation tax office to get my corporation bill. I had received a tax notice from Nagpur Municipal Corporation because my Ex had not paid the dues. I went to the corporation tax office in a cab. I had no idea that I would not get a cab to get back home because of its location. I went inside the office, got all my work done and tried booking a cab. I saw that the App showed that no cabs were available at my location. I got very tense. Suddenly, I heard someone calling me. I just turned my back and saw that same cab driver waiting for me on the roadside side a little away from the corporation office. He said he was waiting for me to come out so that he could take me to my home safely. I thanked that driver and my God. I knew it was my God who planted the thought in his mind to wait for me. I realised that there was some invisible energy guiding my journey. It was just there, not coming in front of me in physical form, staying near me, making its presence felt, still seeming distant because I could not see it.
I did Mantra meditation in the year 2017 to combat stress and depression due to my failed relationship. There was something inside me that said Just go ahead and do this mantra meditation. Though everything was new for me but I still took sankalp and completed my full mantra chanting within a specified period of time. From the year 2017 onwards, I was left all alone with full support of my parents. My parents are aged, so from that year onwards I took full charge of my life. I learnt everything that I needed to learn to get all my official work done because my dad could provide me with financial support, but not physical support. Life really got very difficult. With the passage of time, I accepted my new life, and that invisible energy took over full control of my life. I feel from the bottom of my heart that it's my God Sri Anantha Pdmanabhasawmy who stays with me all the time, making his full presence felt yet remaining silent. I always got help whenever I needed. I made many mistakes in my life, and I feel those wrong decisions made me wiser, and now I listen more to my God who speaks to me in ways no one can ever imagine.
I have suffered from many health problems from the time a void was left in my life due to the new vacant space of my life. None of the doctors could help me, so I turned to yoga and meditation to improve my health. After I felt fully healed from the heartbreak and my bad health, the first thing I did was reach Nagpur and sell my home there. I could not stay there because the old memories took over my full being, and I really got sad there. When I reached Nagpur in March 2025, every person around me told me that it was not easy to sell a home for a good price in a short period of time. I did not pay much attention to what was being conveyed to me and trusted my God and my intuition that I would manage everything and get my work done at the earliest. I contacted many brokers to sell my home. After one broker visited my home, I came to know that I did not have all the documents for selling my home. I understood that the first thing I needed to do was to get my property papers cleared and get my home repaired and painted. After my home was renovated, I called the broker to show my home to various customers. In the meantime, I got my property paperwork done. I did not tell the broker about some of the missing documents. After staying in Nagpur for the full four months, I got all my property papers in my hands. Then one day, an uncle came to see my home. He liked it, but he had viewed some other property too and wanted to go ahead with the purchase fast. He was about to leave when suddenly he showed full interest in buying my flat. I really don't know how he changed his mind. I feel that my God played his role and made that man buy my flat. You people won’t believe that I sold my home within 15 days. It took me 4 months just to get my paperwork done, and just 15 days to sell my flat.
I got all my home papers on 6/6/2025, and the buyer finalized the deal on 20th June 2025. The sale deed happened on 3/7/2025 (Durga Ashtami of Gupt Navaratri). It's all divinely guided. The way everything happened is something which I could never have planned, and if it was not my God, I wouldn't have been able to sell my flat so fast. I had no idea how to get all the paperwork done. I got help from everyone in the government department. I don’t trust any agents for paperwork because they just eat up lots of money and delay the work. That lawyer who was hired by my ex got my paperwork done. I paid him much more than needed because that thief was not ready to hand over my papers if I did not fill his tummy with extra money.
I strongly feel that when you are left all alone and put your full faith in the invisible realm, they hold your hands and guide you. When you meet someone at the right time, when you are searching for some help to get your work done, then it is the universe helping you in ways you never thought possible. I remember I had to get some kitchen work done. The kitchen sink was leaking, and I tried every way to get it mended, but it could not be fixed. Then one day in the month of June, when it was really very hot outside, I just went out looking for any tile shop nearby. I found the shop and was coming home, I met a person in the hardware shop who could fix my kitchen's leaky sink. That man had come to purchase something from the hardware store. He told me the price, and after I agreed, he came to my place and did the work. God, that leaky sink problem, which I had faced for the last 8 to 10 years, was fixed in a day. I really thanked that man. If I had not gone to that hardware shop at that exact time, I wouldn’t have met that man who did my kitchen work. I thanked my God. I knew it was him who helped me.
My trust in that invisible realm and my God has grown stronger with time. I trust that invisible force or the man who always accompanies me everywhere, and I know when the time is right, he will make his full presence felt in my life in the physical realm.
God is Real.
My Book: Love You Zindagi - My Journey to meet Sri Anantha Padmanabhasawmy is available for purchase on Amazon and Flipkart. It is a motivational book on the journey of my life.
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